CALM DOWN. I'm not married (yet). Just a catchy title. Lemme tell you what it means.
So one night, I was talking to my Abba Father (God) and I said to Him,
"Lord, if you do not have a husband out there for me, would you satisfy me with yourself? Would you make my time sweet with you and fill me up with you to the point of not desiring a husband? But Lord, if you do have a husband for me, would you help me to be patient?" Then I went to sleep.
The next morning, I was having my time alone with God when I stumbled across Psalm 63:1-6. Verse 5 says this:
I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods;
with singing lips my mouth will praise you.
This seemed like a pretty straight-forward answer to me: I am never getting married. But then I thought about it some more and this is the progression of my thoughts.
1) Maybe I am supposed to live as if I will never have a husband.
2) Maybe I am to live as if I already have a husband.
1) Maybe I am supposed to live as if I will never have a husband.
2) Maybe I am to live as if I already have a husband.
The more I think about the second thought, the more I like it. If God is my husband, I never have to be in waiting for one- I already have my husband, the lover of my soul! I also like this because God is perfect, right? So that means He also makes the perfect husband. He knows me completely and still loves me. If I have this frame of mind, it really doesn't matter if I have a mate or not. If I do, that's great! Two husbands for me! (For those who know me well, you will know how excited I am about that.) But if not, oh well! I already have the world's best husband.
I am still mulling these thoughts over but I thought I would put them somewhere so I don't forget them.
Also, I have been in Spain 1 week. CRAZY.
Just caught up on your blog... LOVE it!! Your personality and humor makes me laugh even an ocean away :). And I loved your thoughts - so fun and encouraging. I've been thinking about this topic too, recently, and have come to a similar conclusion... but I especially liked the way you put it. Miss you.
ReplyDeleteJessy!!! I been trying to post a comment to your blog for a week...Finally figured it out. I LOVE reading it! I miss you. Is email a good way to contact you?
ReplyDeleteMichelle,
ReplyDeleteThanks so much! Glad you're enjoying it. Blogging is kind of a strange concept. Like writing a letter... but to who? So it's nice to know I'm writing to someone.
Me-Ma!!!!
ReplyDeleteI have been thinking about you!!! Yeah, email is great! Mine is jessykal@usc.edu
I miss you too and think about facebooking you all the time... then remember that you don't use it. I also have skype if you ever have a second to just sit. Can't wait to catch up with you!